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Friday, January 09, 2009

Bizzare Behaviour on SSRi's!

The following is a list of reports from 2008 to present.

We need change and we need it NOW!

Ssri Stories

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Monday, August 25, 2008

Patient Advocate in Harassment Campaign

There comes a time in your life when you have to make a stand against what you believe in.

This blog is my stand. I believe GlaxoSmithKline are guilty of selling a defective drug and are guilty of hiding and/or manipulating the data for that drug.

I've been banging the drum loudly from my little place in Birmingham, others have joined in the campaigning, lobbying MP's or starting up their own blogs to help spread the word.

I believe this 'banging of the drum' has got me my meeting with Kent Woods next month at MHRA Headquarters.

I certainly expected critiques of many of my rants on here, for one, I didn't expect GlaxoSmithKline to take what shit I had to throw at them lying down. They regularly visit this blog [I have the stats].

What I didn't expect was a fellow campaigner, who originally had a gripe with GlaxoSmithKline, to post remarks about me on a mental health forum.

This week I took the unprecedented measure of joining this forum. I openly asked for this person to ask me questions and I would answer them to the best of my ability providing he would answer my questions for his readers. I stayed in the group for 24 hours. He never answered any of my questions, instead he posted vile comments about me. Associating me with a well-know pedophile, labeling me a benefit cheat and a racist. One of his members saw fit to add an image of my face to a cartoon and label me a serial rapist!

Trawling through the archives of the forum I found many comments left by this individual and in the 'Files' section of the group found three photo's of me for his members. When you read remarks such as the ones left by this individual it kind of turns your stomach. Further research through the archives show this person openly admitting that he was once arrested at gunpoint by the Irish Police. That kinda scared me. If he can break restraining orders and scare his wife so much that she calls the police then he could possibly have some serious mental health issues.

To this end, I contacted Yahoo Groups Complaints Department - 5 of the offending posts have now been removed, whether he has moved them, the group owner has moved them of Yahoo Groups have moved them is unknown.

I used to have a myspace and facebook account - these were removed through fear of this very sad individual 'involving' my friends with his bile. In fact he recently uploaded a picture of one of my friends to his little forum.

I find it utterly baffling why a fellow campaigner for better drug regulations in the UK would target not only me but two other Seroxat campaigners. It is plainly obvious that he cannot enter debate, he had 24 hours in which to do so but decided to post old articles about me instead.

Strangely, in 2003 he posted regularly about Seroxat and GlaxoSmithKline, he even taunted Alistair Benbow in some of his posts but somewhere along the line his opinion was changed, instead of targeting GSK and Benbow, he now targets myself and other Seroxat campaigners.

In June this year he wrote to Solicitors handling the Seroxat litigation demanding to know how I could afford a trip to Australia many years ago, he also asked why in the one photo he has of me in Australia, I look so 'larger than life', assuming that I was suffering Seroxat withdrawal at the time the photo was taken.

It has become an obsession for him to trawl through Internet archives and post about me, targeting a poetry site where I used to post then labeling me a 'Tampon Poet'. Yeh, I wrote poetry years ago, yeh I wrote one about Tampons, it's called humour.

He also could not answer whether he had wrote to a mental health charity CEO offering him the same snaps of me in Australia.

I know he wrote to my M.P Gisela Stuart with photos and various claims.

I can put up with critiques of my writing on here, I can even hold my hand up and say I have made a mistake, if it is pointed out to me.

One thing I cannot.. and never will put up with is claims such as 'Benefit Cheat', 'Racist' and associating me with a well known sexual molester of children. The individual wrote " Bangkok said no to Garry Glitter ....but no probs for Fiddaman" - He then posted a photo of me standing in the streets of Bangkok.

Some of his posts were entitled:

I wonder what Scientology lover Bob Fiddaman makes of this

Benefit cheat Fiddaman off to see Kent Woods @ MHRA

Fiddaman making dodgy remarks about Muslims !!

and in the files section he had three photos of me (one taken with a woman)

Two of them were entitled

1. Benefit cheat Bob Fiddaman in Bangkok
2. Benefit cheat Bob Fiddaman in Melbourne

Another member writes... "Evidence Proves Date Drug Rapist Pirate Bob Molested Parrots"

It's a shame that he once used to be focused and belittle Seroxat, he even defended a fellow campaigner whom he now 'slags' off, by writing on a Channel Four Forum. He was incensed that a Seroxat victim had been treated unfairly on the Richard & Judy Show here in the UK. He now 'bad mouths' this Seroxat victim.

I feel for this individual, he needs mental help, hence the reason why I have refrained from naming him in this post.

Yahoo Groups Complaint Dept are investigating further posts he has written and earlier today I contacted West Midlands Police to investigate my claim of Harassment from this individual. No doubt they will be in touch over the coming days.

The jury is out to see whether this very sad individual has learned his lesson.

Read more about this insidious coward HERE


Fid

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Thursday, March 27, 2008

More from Paxil/Seroxat Online database

Here are more comments about Seroxat.

Taken from the online patient database - askapatient.com

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Felt like nerve endings in anus and head were contracting for the first month, awful numbness in head, lifted my spirits but overall this drug is poison. Male 32

Only a mere 5mg/day. First 2 days: slight headache, feeling hazy and increased libido actually. 3rd day: severe depression, loss of concentration, anger, deep sadness, even suicidal thoughts weren't far. Stopped it at once(our best doc. remains ourselves) and fortunately I was(almost) back to normal the next day just some very little dizyness. Male 27

I have currenty been on this drug for over eight years and have decided that I have have had enough of sleeping for 13 hrs a day or more. When I started coming off this medicine I have been so sick. I have constant diarrhea, nausea and irritabiliy. I have this buzzing in my head. I can't stand to hear loud noises and excessive talking it drives me nuts. Female 36

Weight gain mainly, HORRIBLE withdrawl Male 51

Yawn tremors, vision difficulties, confusion, zombie-like, NO SEX DRIVE AT ALL. Female 26

No libido, constipation, weight gain, electrical zaps and swooshy sounds, suicidal ideation, rages, increased depression, agitation, the list goes on..... Male 31

Basically all side effects that are known. worse though, i got the tolerance/poop-out syndrome after a couple of years so i started withdrawing during use. withdrawal is the worst part of this poison! Male 31

COMPLETE LOSS IN SEX DRIVE! some weight gain at first, decreased effectiveness overtime, crazy dreams and night sweats, always sleepy (could sleep for 10 or more hours at a time!) Female 23

Tremors (all over body shakes, like really really bad case of the coffee jitters), insomnia--my brain was WIDE awake at 2 am--hot and cold flashes, I went from freezing cold to burning up in a matter of a minute, and when the hot flashes came, my skin felt as if it were being burned, it acted as a diuretic, made me have to go to the bathroom every ten minutes, and it made me really really nauseous. Female 35

Caused hands to tremble, perspiration/heat intolerance, brain fog, fatigue, insomnia Male 23

Excessive yawning, Dilated pupils, didnt care about things that used to bother me, I stopped obsessing over everything. The side effect that bothered me the most, was the sexual side effects. The desire was gone, completely, and inability to have an orgasm. It was horrible to not be able to have an orgasm! That was when I realized that i needed to stop taking Paxil. Female 26

Rapid weight gain, dizziness, memory loss, rapid heartbeat, loss of concentration, vertigo, nausea, decreased libido, ringing in ears, drymouth, difficulty sleeping, bad nightmares, spontaneous crying episodes Female 34

Turned into a zombie. Extremely sleepy during the day, can't fall asleep at night. Tried getting off it and experienced immense anger at everything. Short blackouts and "electric shocks" with accompanying flashes of light. Hot flushes (I'm male). Shaking, increased perspiration. Male 47

"The benefits of Seroxat far outweight the risks" - MHRA, DoH, GSK

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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Paxil Deaths - The Video

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Woman sues GlaxoSmithKline over husband's suicide

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Seroxat group campaigner to meet PM

Source: The Hunts Post

Prime Minister Gordon Brown is to meet a woman from Huntingdon, who has been campaigning for five years to highlight potential problems with anti-depressants.

Janice Simmons set up the Seroxat User Group in 2002 after discovering that her second husband Jon was addicted to the drug.

Since then thousands of people have contacted her website and the group has provided information to people from all over the world.

Mrs Simmons, 58, a grandmother from Great Stukeley, will travel to Downing Street tomorrow (Thursday), accompanied by Huntingdon MP Jonathan Djanogly and Dr Paul Duckett, from Manchester ­University.

She told The Hunts Post: "I never believed we would get this far. Our MP, Jonathan Djanogly, wrote to Tony Blair in July and we received the invite last week."

Mrs Simmons said there is a long list of demands on their shopping list and her group wants:

* To know why - four years since it started - the investigation into GlaxoSmithKline is still ongoing. The MHRA, (the Medicines and Healthcare Regulatory Agency, the body that regulates medicines), is investigating an allegation that GSK withheld information on Seroxat having a higher suicide risk for under 18s. GSK denies this, saying Seroxat was never licensed for children.

* Why a recommendation from a Health Select Committee report in 2005 - which said that the MHRA should become an independent body - has not been implemented.

* The group wants the MHRA to look at independent information about particular drugs - rather than accept information from drug companies.

* Better enforcement of guidelines from NICE (the National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence) which state that anti-depressants should not be used as a first-line treatment for mild depression.

* The user group says information from its members indicates that many GPs have not heard of the MHRA or the Yellow Card warning system. This is a yellow card doctors and patients are advised to complete to report the side effects of the drugs.

Mrs Simmons set up the group after seeing the addiction of her husband.

Six years before they met, Jon and his first wife were prescribed anti-depressants when their marriage broke down. Jon's wife committed suicide within three weeks of being put on Prozac while 16 years on, Jon is still dependant on anti-depressants.

The Seroxat User Group will also remind Mr Brown that more support groups and funding are needed to help patients trying to withdraw from anti-depressants.

INFORMATION: Contact The Seroxat User Group on www.seroxatusergroup.org.uk

e-mail
janice@seroxatusergroup.org.uk


WAY TO GO JANICE :) :) :)

Word of warning though, when Brown was chancellor he appointed JP Garnier to his International Business Advisory Council - so whatever you may say to him may fall on deaf ears seeing as he is yet another politician who has close ties to GSK

Fid

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Manie's Story (Birth Defects Caused by Antidepressant)

Manie's Story (Birth Defects Caused by Antidepressant)


Read more about Manie at http://bigpharmavictim.blogspot.com/

To quote Manie's Grandfather:

"GSK, how are your grandchildren?
Is just one of them worth the Billions of profit?
Mine is !!!!
Manie's grampa

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

July 2007 – "MANIA: The shocking link between psychiatric drugs, suicide, violence and mass murder"

Source: Whistleblower

From Columbine to Virginia Tech, every time another headline-making mass murderer is discovered to have taken antidepressants or other psychiatric drugs, rumors and speculation abound regarding the possible connection between the medications and the violence.

Now, reports the July 2007 edition of WND's elite monthly Whistleblower magazine, the time for speculation and guessing is over. The evidence is overwhelming and irrefutable, says Whistleblower's groundbreaking investigative report: Mood-altering psychiatric drugs – taken every day by tens of millions of Americans, including millions of children – actually can push some users over the edge into mania, suicide and horrific violence.

The issue is titled "MANIA: The shocking truth about psychiatric drugs and their link to suicide, violence and mass murder."

To begin with, many of the most notorious mass killers in recent memory have been on, or just coming off, prescription mood-altering drugs. Remember these headline names?

Andrea Yates, in one of the most heartbreaking crimes in modern history, drowned all five of her children – aged 7 years down to 6 months – in a bathtub. Insisting inner voices commanded her to kill her kids, she had become increasingly psychotic over the course of several years.

Yates had been taking the antidepressant Effexor. In November 2005, more than four years after Yates drowned her children, Effexor manufacturer Wyeth Pharmaceuticals quietly added "homicidal ideation" to the drug's list of "rare adverse events." But "rare" is defined by the FDA as occurring in less than one in 1,000 people. And since, according to an Associated Press report, about 19.2 million prescriptions for Effexor were filled in the U.S. alone in 2005, that means statistically almost 20,000 Americans could experience "homicidal ideation" – that is, murderous thoughts – as a result of taking just this one antidepressant drug.

Columbine mass-killer Eric Harris was taking the widely prescribed antidepressant Luvox when he and fellow student Dylan Klebold went on a hellish school shooting rampage in 1999, killing 12 students and a teacher and wounding 24 others before turning their guns on themselves.

Luvox manufacturer Solvay Pharmaceuticals concedes that 4 percent of children and youth taking Luvox developed "mania" – a serious mental derangement characterized by extreme excitement and delusion – during short-term controlled clinical trials.

Authorities investigating Cho Seung-Hui, who murdered 32 at Virginia Tech in April, reportedly found "prescription drugs" for the treatment of psychological problems among his possessions. Joseph Aust, Cho's roommate, told the Richmond Times-Dispatch Cho's routine each morning had included taking prescription drugs.

So what kind of meds had Cho been taking? Strangely, his medical records have yet to be released to the public – authorities claiming it's because an investigation is still ongoing, although critics suggest the purpose may be to protect the drug companies from liability claims.

Meanwhile, the list of killers who happened to be taking psychiatric medications is long and chilling. Remember these headline names?

Patrick Purdy's 1989 schoolyard shooting rampage in Stockton, Calif., was the catalyst for the legislative frenzy to ban "semiautomatic assault weapons" in California and the nation. The 25-year-old Purdy, who murdered five children and wounded 30, had been on Amitriptyline, an antidepressant, as well as the antipsychotic drug Thorazine.

Kip Kinkel, 15, murdered his parents in 1998 and the next day went to his school, Thurston High in Springfield, Ore., and opened fire on his classmates, killing two and wounding 22 others. He had been prescribed both Prozac and Ritalin.

In 1988, 31-year-old Laurie Dann went on a shooting rampage in a second-grade classroom in Winnetka, Ill., killing one child and wounding six. She had been taking the antidepressant Anafranil as well as Lithium, long used to treat mania.

In Paducah, Ky., in late 1997, 14-year-old Michael Carneal, son of a prominent attorney, traveled to Heath High School and started shooting students in a prayer meeting taking place in the school's lobby, killing three and leaving another paralyzed. Carneal reportedly was on Ritalin.

In 2005, 16-year-old Native American Jeff Weise, living on Minnesota's Red Lake Indian Reservation, shot and killed nine people and wounded five others before killing himself. Weise had been taking Prozac.

In another famous case, 47-year-old Joseph T. Wesbecker, just a month after he began taking Prozac, shot 20 workers at Standard Gravure Corp. in Louisville, Ky., killing nine. Eli Lilly, which makes Prozac, later settled a lawsuit brought by survivors.

All very interesting, you may be thinking, but what do the drug companies say in their defense?

One of the most widely prescribed antidepressants today is Paxil, manufactured by GlaxoSmithKline.

Paxil's known "adverse drug reactions" – according to the drug's own 2001 FDA-approved label – include "mania," "insomnia," "anxiety," "agitation," "confusion," "amnesia," "depression," "paranoid reaction," "psychosis," "hostility," "delirium," "hallucinations," "abnormal thinking," "depersonalization" and "lack of emotion," among others.

With a rap sheet like that, no wonder pharmaceutical companies are nervous about liability lawsuits over the "rare adverse effects" of their medications. In 1998, for example, GlaxoSmithKline was ordered to pay $6.4 million to Donald Schnell's surviving family members after the 60-year-old man, just two days after taking Paxil, murdered his wife, daughter and granddaughter in a fit of rage.

But reporting the truth about the relationship between psychiatric medications and mass murderers is just the beginning. "MANIA" also reveals clear and compelling evidence that psychiatric drugs hurt children physically – causing shrinkage of their brains, damage to their hearts and other significant effects.

Perhaps even more disconcerting, "MANIA" exposes the federal government's bizarre preoccupation with screening all American school kids to see if they're mentally ill – a process that often leads directly to a prescription for mood-altering drugs for the child who didn't answer the questions properly.

"The problem," said David Kupelian, managing editor of WND and Whistleblower, "is that many Americans don't exactly trust the federal government to determine what constitutes 'mental health.'" Incredibly, as this issue reveals, there is even a government effort to proclaim an infant-and-toddler mental health crisis!

With the numbers of people taking prescription psychiatric medications in the tens of millions and growing every day, this issue will touch virtually every reader in a profound way.

"I think this is one of the most important and frankly mind-boggling editions of Whistleblower we've ever produced," said Kupelian. "The information in it could very well be life-changing – or even life-saving."

Note: You can also order a subscription to Whistleblower magazine.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

GlaxoSmithKline Pushes Depression Drug

by Shelley Jofre, Special to Corp Watch

July 30th, 2007


A striking young woman with a talent for painting, Sharise Gatchell was - like many teenagers - painfully self-conscious. At 14, she moved with her family from South Africa to England where at first she found it hard to make friends. By the age of 16 she was acutely embarrassed that her periods hadn't started and felt she was sweating excessively. Just the sort of thing to make adolescence even more painful than usual. Her mother, Stephanie, took her to see a consultant physician at the local hospital. Stephanie Gatchell recalls:

"During that consultation she became a bit emotional because she was explaining to him about the problems she had and how it affected her social life. Then she started crying and I was amazed. He asked her, 'Sharise, do you sometimes feel like ending it all?', and I couldn't believe it when she said 'Yes I do.' And then he started talking about paroxetine and suggesting that she try it."

"Off-label" Prescriptions

Paroxetine - better known as Paxil in the U.S. - is an antidepressant. It is licensed only for adults, but doctors are allowed to prescribe any medicine if they think it will help their patient, a practice called "off-label" prescribing. Sharise was not the only teenager getting paroxetine off-label. Around 7,000 children a year were on the drug in the UK; and many more in the U.S.

Within days of starting on paroxetine, Stephanie noticed a dramatic change in her daughter: she became more confident. But with the confidence came aggression and worse:

"One day in the kitchen her sleeve pulled up slightly and I noticed that there were cut marks on her left arm. I couldn't believe my eyes. She was obviously self-harming while she was on the drug, something she's never ever done before."

Stephanie persuaded her daughter to stop taking paroxetine. But in 2003 Sharise went back on it without telling her mother. When her parents returned from a weekend break, Stephanie immediately realized something was terribly wrong:

"I went upstairs before my husband came in, and the moment I got to the landing at the top and I turned round and looked, she was hanging from the loft hatch. I tried to revive her, but before I even started I realized I was too late."

Next to her daughter's suicide note lay a packet of paroxetine. Stephanie instinctively blamed the drug and now blames herself for letting her daughter take it. But she couldn't have known what the drug's manufacturer had known for years.

GlaxoSmithKline Experiments on Children

UK-based GlaxoSmithKline (GSK), the second largest drug company in the world, which recorded 2006 sales of over $45 billion, had begun a series of clinical trials in the mid-1990s to test whether paroxetine would work in depressed children. Paroxetine had already been hailed as a wonder drug in adults as a treatment for everything from depression and stress to anxiety and even shyness. By the new millennium 100 million paroxetine prescriptions had been written worldwide, bringing in $2 billion a year for GSK and placing the antidepressant a close second to Prozac in popularity.

With the adult market sewn up, the company sought new ways to make money from the drug, or "life cycle management," as the approach is known in the pharmaceutical industry. The U.S. Food and Drug Administration wanted to boost the number of medicines tested for children and had introduced an incentive that would give companies a six-month extension on their patent just for carrying out pediatric trials. For paroxetine alone that would be worth $1 billion. And if GSK could be the first company to prove its antidepressant was safe and effective for children, the rewards would be even higher, as paroxetine could become the market leader.

Hundreds of children were recruited from around the world to take part in three clinical trials. One group was given the drug, the other a placebo. They were randomized controlled trials (RCT) where neither the children nor their doctors knew whether they were taking the active drug or the placebo until the end of the study. This is widely accepted as the best way of working out whether a drug causes a particular effect: the gold standard in terms of evidence.

But the outcome of these the trials was not what GSK had been hoping for. Paroxetine proved no better than placebo. In the biggest trial, Study 329, which was conducted across several sites in the U.S., 11 of the 93 children who took paroxetine developed serious side-effects; seven had to be hospitalized. Significantly more had self-harmed or attempted suicide on the drug than on placebo.

The BBC (British Broadcasting Corporation) obtained confidential case reports from Study 329 which detail what happened to them:

"[13 days after starting paroxetine] the patient became very angry. He punched pictures, broke glass and sustained lacerations that required six sutures... he expressed hopelessness and possible suicide thoughts."

"The patient began exhibiting symptoms of disinhibition, grandiosity and expansive mood around week four [after eight weeks] the patient became agitated and said she would kill herself."

"[11 days after starting paroxetine] the patient was hospitalized for psychosis with auditory hallucinations and superficial cuts."

Yet this was a drug that was supposed to make children happier and reduce the risk of suicide.

The company knew it had a problem. In an internal memo to senior executives in 1998 the product director for paroxetine admitted:

"The results of the studies were disappointing. The possibility of obtaining a safety statement from this data was considered but rejected. Consultation of the marketing teams confirmed that this would be unacceptable commercially."

In other words, publishing the data in full would undermine the drug's safety profile and put profits at risk. It took five years for this information to reach the public domain and only then as a result of the BBC investigation. In the intervening years doctors continued to prescribe a drug to tens of thousands of vulnerable children, ignorant of the fact that it had not been shown to work and was harmful to some.

Lawsuits Reveal Questionable Paper Trail

This has been described by British psychiatrist Dr. David Healy as "the biggest medical scandal since thalidomide." Dr. Healy, rather than the regulatory authorities charged with monitoring the safety of medicines, was instrumental in uncovering the evidence at the heart of the scandal. It was a series of U.S. legal actions that led Dr. Healy, as an expert witness, and the legal team with whom he was working, deep into GSK's secret archives, where they found a series of damning internal documents.

What this paper trail reveals is how the company, with no hope of obtaining a children's license, devised a back-door method of marketing paroxetine for childhood depression. In came the spin-doctors to bury the inconvenient facts and spread the good news to doctors around the world that paroxetine was safe and effective for children.

Drug companies discovered long ago that doctors are much more likely to be persuaded by their peers than by the hard sell of sales reps. So GSK built a business relationship with several leading academics to write articles and speak at conferences, effectively selling paroxetine for the company. They are known in the trade as "Key Opinion Leaders."

Internal company documents reveal that Professor Martin Keller, Chair of Psychiatry at Brown University in the U.S., was one of the company's leading Key Opinion Leaders. He was named as the author of Study 329. But the documents cast doubt on whether he actually analyzed the data himself and wrote the final paper. In a memo, Professor Keller thanks a ghost writer for the initial preparation of the study manuscript - a ghost writer who works for a medical public relations company hired by GSK:

"You did a superb job with this. Thank you very much. It is excellent. Enclosed are some rather minor changes from me."

It is clear from the internal correspondence that the ghost writer was making some important decisions about how to present the data for publication. At one point a senior GSK executive comments that: "It seems incongruous that we state that paroxetine is safe yet report so many Serious Adverse Events."

GSK suggests to the public relations person that she make clear paroxetine may have caused all 11 of the serious side-effects. But the final article says: "Of the 11 patients, only headache (1 patient) was considered to be related to the treatment."

The paper never states clearly how many children became suicidal, nor does it explore whether the drug was to blame. Instead, it concludes that paroxetine is "generally well-tolerated and effective".

The next step in GSK's marketing plan was to get the study published. Doctors rely on medical journals to give them advice they can trust. The first journal GSK approached spotted flaws in the study and rejected it. So the company sent it to the premier children's mental health magazine, the Journal of the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry. Its peer reviewers also spotted the flaws, as is clear from their confidential comments:

"Overall. Results do not clearly indicate efficacy, authors need to clearly note this."

"The relatively high rate of serious adverse effects was not addressed in the discussion."

"Given the high placebo response rate, are [these drugs] an acceptable first-line therapy for depressed teenagers?"

Nevertheless, the journal published the study. Who knows how many child and adolescent psychiatrists around the world were influenced by the article's misleading conclusion?

At the same time, another of GSK's PR people was saying in an internal memo:

"Originally we had planned to do extensive media relations surrounding this study until we actually viewed the results. Essentially the study did not really show paroxetine was effective in treating adolescent depression, which is not something we want to publicize."

Objective Medical Opinion?

When I first started looking at Study 329 for the BBC in 2002, I was confused about its findings. The published article's conclusions seemed at odds with the details of the study. I went to Philadelphia to interview one of the authors and came across another of GSK's Key Opinion Leaders - Dr. Neil Ryan, an eminent child psychiatrist at the University of Pittsburgh. He was speaking at an American Psychiatric Association symposium sponsored by GSK but I had no reason at that time to think he was anything other than independent.

Dr. Ryan told the audience that paroxetine was effective for children with depression. He didn't mention anything about the apparent high rate of psychiatric side-effects of paroxetine in Study 329. But the more I studied the data, the more convinced I became that paroxetine was causing serious problems for some kids who took it. When I returned to Britain, I pursued him by telephone but he refused to talk to me about it.

Fast forward four years, when the internal GSK documents revealed what had actually been going on behind the scenes. Dr. Ryan had been asking the company that sponsored his research how he should deal with my awkward questions, emailing all my correspondence to them. In one email he said:

"I'll call you again later today and you can advise on how might be best to handle this."

GSK denies that it promoted paroxetine for off-label use through Key Opinion Leaders or any other route, laying the responsibility firmly at the door of individual clinicians.

A statement issued by the company reads: "Any decision to prescribe a medicine outside its authorized indications, in the EU or the U.S., is made by a doctor on the basis of his/her clinical judgement and the interests of their patient."

But where do doctors get the information from that gives them the confidence to prescribe off-label? From medical journals and conferences.

It was the documents that in the end exposed the Key Opinion Leaders and the drug company. Without the U.S. legal action we would have been none the wiser. The drug is now effectively banned in the UK for use in under-18s and in the U.S. it carries a "black box" warning about the risk of suicidal behaviour.

This drug was GSK's golden egg for many years and a lucrative business was built around its promotion. So it is perhaps not surprising the company dismissed my investigation as media scaremongering. What is surprising, though, is how many doctors on both sides of the Atlantic who claim to practice evidence-based medicine still refuse to acknowledge the damage the drugs can do - even though the evidence comes from GSK's own RCTs and the company's internal correspondence clearly shows how they tried to cover it up.

Sales Affected by Warning Labels

Dr. Mike Shooter, former President of the Royal College of Psychiatrists and a child psychiatrist who used to prescribe paroxetine, says:

"I personally felt cheated and heaven only knows what the children, adolescents and their parents and their doctors on the other end of that felt. Very much the same. This has huge implications, right through medicine."

Professor Keller and Dr. Ryan seem unabashed by their role in the scandal. A few months ago Professor Keller co-authored another paper, on the impact of media reporting on prescribing. Rather than exploring how those conducting the trials overlooked the damage to children caused by the drug, he and his co-authors expressed concern that prescriptions of antidepressants to children have declined sharply in the U.S. since the addition of the black box warning - as if the increased risk of suicidal behaviour on the drugs wasn't something that should affect prescribing.

The FDA is now considering whether to remove the black box warning on paroxetine and other similar antidepressants because it is scaring doctors. In the UK, the regulatory authorities are investigating whether GSK acted fraudulently in its conduct over Study 329. Theoretically, criminal charges could be brought, but the medicine's regulator is fully-funded by the drugs industry, so don't hold your breath.

Meanwhile, Stephanie Gatchell and her husband have moved away from the home that holds so many awful memories, to start a new life in Ireland. They can't forgive GlaxoSmithKline for concealing what it knew about paroxetine:

"I can't understand how they could possibly be so devious, and all just because of profit. I think the decision-makers in that company should be brought to justice. They have a lot to explain."

*Shelley Jofre is a reporter with BBC TV's flagship current affairs program: Panorama. To learn more about Sharise Gatchell, see http://www.gevil.netopti.net/.

GlaxoSmithKline issued a statement in response to Shelley Jofre's investigation.

WATCH SHELLY JOFRE'S POWERFUL INVESTIGATION

Video 'Secret Emails' kicks in around the 2.50 mark.


Monday, July 30, 2007

Seroxat Mad Forum

Thanks once again to the Truthman for sending this info on to me.

sErOxAtMaDHas your wonder medication seroxat turned you seroxatmad? If so this site is for you!

So says the blurb at the head of the site HERE

A rather interesting post caught my attention:

Dear GSK

I want my old life back, thanks very much. I bought your product, and by its addictive qualities you are forcing me to continue to buy it, and I dont like it anymore. Specifically, I want you to

Stop my crashing depression
Stop my head zaps
Stop me feeling totally spaced out all the time
Stop me getting short tempered with my kids who do nothing wrong except be kids
Allow me to return to work and regain some professional respect and integrity
Allow me to concentrate on more than one task at a time
Allow me to return to my normal weight and stop me looking like ive shoved a cushion down my shirt
Allow me to spend time with large groups of people without being convulsed with fear

Its not too much to ask is it?

I don't want any nonsense about a 'gradual improvement' either. I dont want to work at feeling better. I dont want to stuff my face full of magnesium citrate, vitamin B, fruit and vegetables, fish oil tablets or stugeron. I don't want to have to hang around in saunas, steam rooms, flotation tanks or new age hippy remedy treatment centres that do no bloody good.

I would also like a refund of the approximately £800 i have spent on your 'medicine' over the last 10 years, which has made me MORE ILL.

Male, Married with 3 great kids including a new baby who all tire me out! Seroxat 20mg for 11 years. Always struggled to come off. Now attempting for the 3rd time by coming off very slowly at 1mg per 2 months, although thinking of speeding up to 1mg per month. I'm now on 10mg and will be completely weaned off by 2008/9!- Also supplementing with fish oil and vitamin B

Kinda sums it up up eh?

There are many more posts from sufferers HERE






Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Back after a short break

If there was ever a time when I needed a break then this was it. Recent events kinda pushed me over the edge a little and a trip to Scotland to watch one of my fav bands was just what the doctor ordered. Big Country were a band who tragically lost their singer sometime ago. The weekend was a celebration of the birth of Big Country (25 years ago).

I met up with old friends and made new ones too and will see Big Country perform again on the up and coming mini tour of the UK.

For those interested there are a few videos on youtube of the two gigs I attended, this one from Glasgow and this from Aberdeen.

I owe a lot to music - AC/DC, Dixie Chicks and Big Country helped me through my Seroxat withdrawal - so thanks go in particular to these artists.

Fid

*Many thanks to the well wishes for my son Gary. He has now had his stitches removed and had them replaced with butterfly stitches. He's doing ok.

In my absence I received many emails regarding Paxil/Seroxat stories - I'm just going through them now but one that is of importance is the Seroxat Petition. Please visit the link and sign (if you haven't already) HERE

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Mothers of Paxil

Toledo, OH: Kristie Crayne started taking Paxil in 2000 and stayed on it during her pregnancy. Her daughter Megan was born in 2001. "I met other Moms' in the hospital who had also taken Paxil," says Crayne. "None of us knew Paxil caused birth defects. When you are sitting together in NICU you talk about how you are coping with a sick baby. 'I love that pink pill,' other mothers told me; 'It helps me get through this.' We didn't know ..." (FULL STORY)

Concord, NH: "Every time I saw my Ob/Gyn during my pregnancy, I asked if it was safe to be taking Paxil, and every time he said there were absolutely no risks," says Tanya Barnes. But Tanya doesn't blame the doctor -- he was also kept in the dark about Paxil. "Paxil didn't mention anything about possible birth defects." (FULL STORY)

Batavia, IL: "I took Paxil for two months before I knew I was pregnant," says Shae Conlin. "My daughter lived for one hour until she passed away in my husband's arms." (FULL STORY)

Toledo, OH: " In 2004, my wife took Paxil during the first trimester of her pregnancy," says Roy Gueldenzoph. "Two days after our daughter was born, our doctor gave us two options: do nothing and she dies, or get her to a heart specialist immediately. We opted for the latter." (FULL STORY)

Omaha, NE: "My wife took Paxil before and during her pregnancy and everything was fine," says Trever Hargitt. "This was going to be our third so we knew what to expect -- or thought we did..." Keagan Hargitt lived only three short weeks due to heart and lung failure. "Now we will never know what our son could have grown up to be." (FULL STORY)

Watertown, SD: "Several months after my son Nathan passed away, I started to do a lot of research on PPHN and discovered there was a link between Paxil and the birth defects he had," says Jennifer Berg. "I felt sick, I felt it was my fault." (FULL STORY)

Rutherfordton, NC: "To the makers of Paxil I want to ask this: how you can live with yourselves, when you know that Paxil can cause heart and lung defects and PPHN in babies?" says Wendy Tinsley. "For five months we didn't know if our son was going to survive." (FULL STORY)

Whitby, ON: Due to a bad car accident in 1998 that led to depression and anxiety, Lisa Goring was prescribed Paxil. She became pregnant in 2001 and her doctor said it was safe to stay on this SSRI. Most doctors today know otherwise. (FULL STORY)

Austin, TX: Susie Collins and her husband were thrilled when they found out she was pregnant. But their happiness was shortlived: after an ultrasound, Susie regretted having taken Paxil during her pregnancy. (FULL STORY)

Kentucky:" The doctors told us it was a miracle that our son is alive," said Stephen Buchanan. Kaden was born in May 2004 but Stephen only recently found out about the link between his son's heart defects and Paxil. (FULL STORY)

Many more accounts can be found HERE


I think patients have nothing to fear from taking Seroxat.
Dr. Alastair Benbow
GlaxoSmithKline’s European Medical Director6/13/2002



Thank you GlaxoSmithKline. You truly are a caring company

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Seroxat - Who is responsible? (Video)




More Seroxat/GlaxoSmithKline related videos:

GlaxoSmithKline: Proud

Man takes Alli and suffers side effects!!!

GSK's Alli lambasted by rival Pharmaceutical Company

GSK Aided Saddam Regime?

ZAP! ZAP! ZAP! Electricity in back of head - Paxil/Seroxat

Seroxat Video from the archives

Archives (Seroxat Moneytalks)

Liars or Good, honest men?

WALT DISNEY'S PINBENBOW

Seroxat - Taken on Trust

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PANORAMA - SEROXAT - THE SECRET EMAILS


Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Seroxat/Paxil and Birth Defects

Source: Houston Personal Injury Lawyer

Cynics would suggest that a lawyer is in it just for the money - however, it is usually those same cynics that have something to hide and to a certain extent should be helping those suffering at the hands of a drug they (the cynics) refuse to acknowledge causes problems


Shae Conlin took Paxil for two months before she knew she was pregnant. Her daughter only lived for one hour before passing away.

She had been taking Paxil for anxiety as well as the birth control pill at the time, so her pregnancy seemed to surprise her. She stopped taking the drug as soon as she found out. She was supposed to have twins and was told that only one baby had a heartbeat. After that, she was told that the baby was perfectly fine and everything was okay.

An in depth ultrasound proved otherwise. Tests showed that the baby would probably die at birth. The baby was born totally deformed with no muscles or bones. She was born paralyzed and couldn't swallow anything. Imagine your baby being born like this...very scary to think about. Doctors weren't 100% sure why this happened, but they told Mrs. Conlin that it could possibly happen again. She was so scared to have a third child. She ended up having a tubal ligation after her third child was born. She will never have kids again.

It turns out that Mrs. Conlin wasn't mad at her doctor because he didn't know that Paxil could have such side effects, but she was very upset with the drugmaker, rightfully so.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

New Seroxat Forum

The Seroxat Forum conjunction with SeroxatUserGroup is a UK based forum to enable British users, both past and present, of Seroxat (Paroxetine/Paxil) to share their story of withdrawal symptoms, organ damage (with particular emphasis on liver problems), neurological difficulties or side effects of any kind. The aim of this particular forum is to enable us to show the world the bigger picture regarding the effects, both past, present and long term, of taking Seroxat.

If you are a user of Seroxat, or know someone who is or was taking Seroxat; or if you or someone you know has stopped taking Seroxat, please feel free to share your story on the Seroxat Forum. Withdrawal symptoms, organ damage or side effects of any kind can be shared here.

Please visit this new forum and share your stories

Fid

Saturday, May 26, 2007

For Alistair Benbow GlaxoSmithKline



I think patients have nothing to fear from taking Seroxat.
Dr. Alastair Benbow
GlaxoSmithKline’s European Medical Director6/13/2002


You think so?



For more on the shocking story of Manie please visit http://www.bigpharmavictim.blogspot.com/


Friday, May 18, 2007

Seroxat Nightmare

Do not adjust your sound or picture.

The following video was posted on youtube to highlight exactly what it feels like whilst under the influence of Seroxat.

I'm sure there are many folks who can relate to this.

I sincerely hope when GlaxoSmithKline come to my blog they will take time to watch and maybe... just maybe realise that the public outcry is growing with (I'll paraphrase Alistair Breckenridge here) 'Great rapidity'

Saturday, March 17, 2007

The Anguish Caused by Paxil

March 17, 2007. By Jane Mundy


Rutherfordton, NC: "To the makers of Paxil I want to ask this: how you can live with yourselves, when you know that Paxil can cause heart and lung defects and PPHN in babies?" says Wendy Tinsley. "For five months we didn't know if our son was going to survive."

"When I was 20 weeks pregnant my doctor said it was safe to stay on Paxil," says Tinsley. "But after the first ultrasound, we found out that my baby had a heart defect and he told me to immediately get off Paxil." And that was the beginning of Tinsley's nightmare.

"I started taking Paxil in August 2001 and found out I was pregnant that November 2001. When we got the phone call that our baby had a heart defect the doctor scheduled a 'level 2' ultrasound. Even when my OB doctor told me to quit taking Paxil right away, it still didn't occur to me that Paxil was the cause of any problems - I was so traumatized with this news. I'd already had five perfectly normal, full-time pregnancies and have five perfectly healthy kids.

And I just assumed that the doctor didn't want me taking any medication because of this second ultrasound. At 21 weeks, before I had the ultrasound my placenta ruptured; I was able to hold off the labor for another 3 weeks and Joshua was born at 24 weeks -- he weighed 1 lb 12 oz.

When Joshua was two days old, they told us that he would need heart surgery because his PDA valve wouldn't close. And when he was eight days old, he had open heart surgery. He had chronic lung disease and bronchial pulmonary dysplasia (BPD)that caused chronic asthma. He will be five years old next month and he has been hospitalized 42 times, mainly for lung problems.

He didn't come home from NICU until he was four months old. And he had a brain bleed. They did ultrasounds every Wednesday on his head for about two months to make sure the brain bleeds weren't getting worse and to determine whether or not he would need surgery.

But the worst hurdle is his lungs. Joshua's lungs are so weak and his immune system is very low; if he gets a normal cold his lungs give out and he has to be hospitalized anywhere from four days to a week at a time. He has to be on oxygen and on breathing treatments four times a day. He is given steroids frequently to open his airways but in so doing, this compromises his immune system.

Today he is managing but just last month he was back in hospital twice with pneumonia. His lungs will always be bad; it breaks my heart that his chronic lung disease will never go away. His heart is better but it is still a concern.

About two weeks ago, when Joshua was in hospital again, I saw a TV ad that said Paxil caused birth defects. So I came home and looked on the Internet and saw your site. I had always blamed myself, wondering what I had done or didn't do. Then I realized that, after five years blaming myself, it wasn't my fault. Now I am angry at my doctors but mainly the drug makers.

How can [SmithKline Beecham] put Paxil on the market then make people suffer for the rest of their lives and get away with it, so they can make more money? I just don't get it. To me there is no amount of money that can help; no amount can let me forget when my little boy had heart surgery.


From: lawyersandsettlements.com


Thursday, March 15, 2007

Seroxat Down Under (Aropax)

THE ADELAIDE REVIEW

The drug Aropax can be a saviour for sufferers of anxiety and depression – and a devil in disguise.

By John Spoehr


IT was hell going on it and even more difficult coming off it. After three years of taking Aropax, a commonly prescribed anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication, I was feeling great. I was optimistic about the future and wanted to see what life after Aropax might look like. I anticipated withdrawl symptoms, remembering vividly the debilitating side-effects that knocked me about when I first started taking the medication.

My GP advised reducing the dosage over a period of time. I went from 20mg to 10mg and then after a month reduced to 5mg before stopping altogether. A week later I began to experience a range of withdrawal symptoms. The first was dizziness, followed by regular electrical shock sensations or “zaps” in my head. These radiated down my arms. A few days into this experience I made the mistake of talking at a luncheon of 100 people. Aropax had removed the anxiety “peaks” that made public speaking so difficult for me. I hardly touched the meal and had a small glass of wine, hoping that it would help to relax me. It didn’t. I got off to a reasonable start, but soon began fumbling over my words, unable to collect my thoughts. I became painfully self-conscious. Fear and self-doubt kicked in. I wished I had fainted. I had flirted with a public speaking disaster and lived to tell the tale. It wasn’t as bad as I had imagined but then again I didn’t get much positive feedback.

I am one of thousands of Australians managing depression and anxiety. About 800,000 Australians suffered depression in 2003. In 1997, there were about 50,000 South Australians experiencing depression and 110,000 experiencing anxiety disorders. Remarkably, around 15 out of every 100 South Australians experience depression and anxiety disorders. This might be the tip of an iceberg. While there are alternative treatment options available, medications are commonly prescribed. One of the main ones is Aropax, manufactured by the US pharmaceutical giant GlaxoSmithKline (GSK). Around one million prescriptions were written for Aropax in Australia in 2002. Anxiety and depression treatment is a major industry.

Aropax belongs to a class of anti-depressant drugs called Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs). It is thought that Aropax acts on chemicals in the brain called amines which play a key role in the regulation of mood. The active ingredient in Aropax is paroxetine hydrochloride. It is now widely prescribed to treat conditions such as irrational fears, obessional behaviour, panic attacks and excessive anxiety. While there appears to be a broad consensus that Aropax is beneficial for many sufferers, the occurrence of debilitating side-effects and serious withdrawl symptoms has motivated some governments to review its use.

GSK admits that taking Aropax can have serious side-effects. Some of the more common “mild” ones include feeling sick, dry mouth, constipation, decreased appetite, diarrhoea, drowsiness, dizziness, difficulty getting to sleep, impaired sexual function, feeling sweaty or shaky, bruising and weight gain. More serious side-effects include muscle spasms or twitches.

While counselling, exercise and a healthy lifestyle all play a vital role in helping to manage and reduce the debilitating effects of depression and anxiety, medication can play a vitally important role. I only contemplated using anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication because I was searching for something that might reduce the relatively high levels of anxiety that I carried around with me. My GP prescribed Aropax to me three years ago. He warned that I would probably feel worse before I felt better but urged me to persist with it. He was right. Perversely, the drug made me feel worse than I ever had. This lasted about a week before I began to feel some benefits. For a few days my anxiety levels spiralled out of control and I felt nauseous and dizzy. A large bruise spontaneously appeared on my face. I was told by one GP that it was unrelated to taking Aropax, but I knew that the manufacturer had identified bruising as a possible side-effect. It was impossible to work so I stayed at home, trying to sleep as much as I could. It took a week or so for the worst of the side-effects to dissipate. The dry mouth persisted for months before disappearing and the impaired sexual function persisted for much longer. While the manufacturer fails to define what impaired sexual function means, in practice it involves a loss of interest in sexual activity and difficulty achieving orgasm. This is hardly a minor side effect. It is possible, however, to have a healthy sex life while on the drug.

One of the most frustrating side-effects of Aropax is weight gain. I put on about 10kg and found it difficult to lose weight despite a healthy diet and regular exercise.

One of Aropax’s great strengths is also one of its weaknesses. It helps to significantly reduce the debilitating effects of depression and anxiety but it can do so in a way that makes it difficult to experience the full range of human emotions. It can make it difficult to cry and to feel joy. For many sufferers this might be a relatively small price to pay to be rid of the debilitating effects of depression and anxiety.

Obscured by the hype surrounding the emergence of “wonder drugs” such as Aropax are allegations that the side-effects of going on and off Aropax are not being taken seriously enough by general practitioners. These can be so distressing that people stop taking the drug before it has any chance to be beneficial.

What appears to be missing at the point of prescription is a protocol for managing the use of the drug. Manufacturers provide little guidance to the medical profession; GSK appears to have downplayed the difficulties of withdrawing from Aropax. It simply says “Do not stop taking Aropax even if you begin to feel better. Your doctor will tell you when and how Aropax should be discontinued”. It fails to provide sound, researched evidence on withdrawal, leaving GPs and specialists to deal with the problem.

It has been alleged that GSK has failed to be transparent about the risks with Aropax and its adverse withdrawal effects. Recently GSK was forced to acknowledge its drug can have effects on teenagers, including extreme hostility, deeper depression and suicidal tendencies. As a consequence, the prescription of Aropax to teenagers in Britain and New Zealand was banned. It is still prescribed in Australia.

The European Agency for the Evaluation of Medicinal Products established an inquiry into Aropax (paroxetine) in June 2003. It recommended major changes to product information distributed throughout the EU. In particular, it recommended that paroxetine not be used for children and adolescents as there were indications that the drug might contribute to suicidal behaviour. The inquiry insisted that prescribers closely monitor patients at high risk. It also recommended that “... prescribers and patients should be warned regarding the occurrence of withdrawal reactions upon stopping treatment”. The review acknowledged that while “... withdrawal symptoms tend to be mild to moderate ... they may be severe and/or prolonged”.

Australia has been slow to act to concerns raised about the use of Aropax. GlaxoSmithKline should be compelled to disclose all they know about side-effects and withdrawal symptoms to an independent review committee established by the Federal Government. Australian studies also should be undertaken to make us better informed on the use of paroxetine. In the meantime, GPs and specialists should work together to develop a common framework to guide Aropax use – and they might think about consulting with Aropax users as they do so.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Seroxat Archives - Evening Standard (London), Oct 11, 2005









Evening Standard (London), Oct 11, 2005




SUNDAY 14 February 1999 was the worst day of my life. The fact that it was Valentine's Day, I was eight months pregnant and had two sons to care for but no partner was the last thing on my mind. I was, in fact, out of my mind, or very nearly.




A fortnight earlier I'd had two panic attacks - terrifying enough, but it was soon to become clear that this was just a prelude. I was 42 and the baby's father, with whom I'd had an affair after splitting from my husband, had dumped me right at the start of my pregnancy. He'd told me to have an abortion but, later in the pregnancy, demanded that I hand the baby over to him at birth; he then threatened to have her taken away.




I had hoped everyone would share my joy at being unexpectedly pregnant but my parents were mortified; my husband hardly less so. My sons, aged 12 and 10, weren't happy because they loathed the baby's father, who had bullied them behind my back during the year he stayed with us. The situation was already far from ideal but it was about to get much worse.




After the second panic attack, my GP diagnosed depression and prescribed Seroxat, saying it would "lift my mood". In fact, I believe it was the catalyst that tipped me over the edge into a full- blown state of anxiety.




Two days after I started taking the drug, my stomach began churning with fear as dusk approached and I couldn't sleep. I found myself in the garden at 2am, shivering but unable to stay inside, terrified of - what? I had no idea.




It was freezing outside but my palms were sweating; my heart pounded so fast I could hardly breathe. Adrenaline shocks were hitting me every few seconds, so intense they were physically painful. Never having heard of anxiety as a clinical condition, I didn't know what was going on. Desperately frightened, I rushed back to the doctor and was given an extra-large dose of Valium to help me sleep that night. I was awake again after two hours.




After only five days of Seroxat the doctor told me to stop taking it, but it was too late. Every day the anxiety started earlier: soon it had taken over the whole day. I managed to go into the office once but spent most of the day pacing the streets. Finally, exhausted, I had to go home to look after the boys, as their father was working.




Over the next few days I tried every remedy I could think of: acupuncture, aromatherapy, yoga, reading the Bible.




When I requested counselling, the GP gave me a list of practitioners - all private, because the waiting-list for NHS counsellors was far too long to be of use to me. One local psychotherapist said his initial consultation fee was Pounds 55 and offered an appointment in three days. I needed help straight away, I told him. "Take deep breaths," he advised. The thought of a succession of Pounds 55 fees was enough in itself to make me take deep breaths.




I'd managed so far to look after the boys, cooking, washing and ironing, getting them ready for school. But on that Sunday morning the facade finally cracked.




With thoughts of suicide in my mind for the first time as the only means of ending the torment, I knew I had to get real help, not just drugs, and called my husband to ask him to look after the boys until further notice. They were scared and concerned for me but had been trying to play along - they'd even done their homework without being nagged!




Fighting back the tears, I tried to reassure them as I said goodbye.




My only choice now, I thought, was to check myself into the local mental hospital, Springfield in Tooting. I'd been there that week for an assessment and came away traumatised.




The patients I saw all appeared to be doped up: some slept on curtained-off beds while more were huddled, blankeyed, in chairs. Others paced around, muttering or occasionally yelling.




The consultant concluded that I didn't belong there, but on that Sunday I was forced to reconsider it as the only option that could prevent me from harming myself and my unborn child.




As soon as the boys had gone, I called the out-of-hours GP service to let them know what I was doing. A sympathetic doctor told me not to go to Springfield yet and faxed a prescription to the local chemist for beta-blockers, saying they would "calm things down" by slowing my heart rate.




But staying at home was still out of the question and I called Ruth, a newspaper colleague who had told me to phone if I needed anything. She invited me to stay with her that night, but she would be out during the day.




So I packed a bag and not knowing where else to go, headed for the office.




Unfazed, another work colleague, Stephen, invited me to have dinner with him and his girlfriend, whom I'd never met. No, he reassured me, she wouldn't mind at all that it was meant to be a Valentine's dinner. That morning-I wouldn't have been able to consider sitting still for more than a few minutes, but now the beta- blockers were kicking in. From dinner, I went to Ruth's. Together she and Stephen saved my life, and I don't use that phrase lightly.




They arranged for care in a private clinic under an eminent consultant, all paid for by my employer. And with a combination of old-fashioned tricyclic antidepressants, cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) - a form of counselling that replaces " unhelpful" negative beliefs with positive ones - rest, prayer and the love and support of my friends, I recovered in time for Imogen's birth. The boys' father brought them to the hospital and they bonded with their sister instantly. They are still besotted.




Imogen's low birthweight, 5lb 12oz, worried the doctors. There were other "pointers", too, that indicated an abnormality. At about six months she was diagnosed with velocardiofacial syndrome, a relatively common chromosome disorder which entails physical and mental developmental delays as well as heart and palate deficiencies.




A study last month found that babies of women who take Seroxat in the first 12 weeks of pregnancy are at a very high risk of heart and palate defects, although I'm assured Imogen's condition is a random occurrence, unrelated to any medication I'd taken.




Her hole in the heart was repaired when she was three. Now, even after two palate operations, her speech is still unclear but she is a sweet natured child and, despite her difficulties, outgoing and happy.




If I had taken my own life that Valentine's Day, I'm convinced Seroxat would have been to blame. Research in August linked the drug to an increase in suicide attempts in adults - it had already been banned for use by teenagers for the same reason - and I am now hoping to join a class action against the maker, GlaxoSmithKline.




A legal firm is collating compensation claims on behalf of users damaged by Seroxat and relatives of those who committed suicide while on the drug.




When I called them this week, Glaxo Smithkline said: "Paroxetine [Seroxat's generic name] is an important medicine designed to treat serious psychiatric diseases that cause many thousands of premature and often preventable deaths around the world every year. As with all medicines, SSRI antidepressants can cause side effects in some people."




But I don't have an issue solely with the drug company: I also believe the NHS let me down badly. However wellintentioned, the doctors did nothing but put me out on the street with prescriptions for unsuitable drugs. Many experts agree that so-called "talking therapies" are more effective than antidepressants, and yet while such treatment remains effectively unavailable on the NHS, GPs will have no choice but to write out the prescriptions.






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